Well, its just a year ago that all of my development started and , wow , what a year it has been for me!
My development and progress has humbled me in many ways and opened my mind to so many possibilities. I have learnt so much. It has taken me through many high’s and low’s. It causes laughter and tears.
My Teacher has taken me back to the very basics and foundations of development that make it possible to work on a good bed of knowledge and slowly build the wall of experience. With good teacher , practise and control (and doing as I am told) my development will move forward so that one day I maybe as half as good as him to help those who need it whether living or in the spirit world. Believe me , going against the grain and trying to push forward against the Teachers advice will back fire on you...it did me.
During the basics of the development I have had some great points and learnt so much so far. Protection, control , talking to spirit , especially the fun jovial type , is great! Feeling for energies of all types from peoples aura’s to the energy held within every object , it just leaves you in total amazement and you start to realise that everything has its place in this world and leads you to a much bigger picture of life.
I have been lucky enough to see my guides and my main guide has taken me on many journeys of education , self enlightenment , journeys of discovery , others of experience , cities and places not of this world and places to where my passed loved ones stay. It would take me so long to list them all and I just wouldn’t know where to start.
There have been difficult times though. About this time last year my teacher said to me that development is an amazing thing , there are many ups and downs and in his words “You will face your demons!” With a raised eye brow and over confident smirk my initial reaction was some what cocky. Like most balanced people my hard nut exterior reaction was that I never had any fears or deep down issues to deal with and laughed off the advice. How wrong I was!!!
That didn’t actually mean that I had little red men with tails and horns dancing around me but I would encounter more personal issues , facing fears , releasing suppressed emotion and over coming anything that has held me back from being the real me until now. For me it was facing personal loss buried deep inside but believe me it feels good to deal with! I have a childhood fear which I am dealing with now. I have fought both of my ‘demons’ all of the way making it more difficult upon myself in not allowing these things to come forward so if this ever happens to you just go with the flow and let your soul do what it needs to do to be free and the real you.
I am a control freak and keeping control, locking these issues into the depths of my being and of the all the things that has ever rocked my boat in the past seemed the best way to deal with it. It was said to me that by loosing control you gain more back. I could never understand that until this point. I still think I have a way to go on this though.
As development pushes forward I am learning to pass on simple messages with out elaborating or imagination falling in with this to those sit in our weekly circle , as are all of the group. This is a strong group with trust and we all sit in the circle for the same reasoning , for development. What a great bunch!
I am so lucky that this is my path to walk along. I know it will have up hill and even rocky moments but the rewards that lay ahead intrigue and draw me forward with the opportunity to learn in the plane of spiritual discovery.
