Merlin`s Blog

Well its been a little while since I have written here. Much has happened in my personal life to influence my spiritual journey.

Well , the best part of the recent path I have been walking on has been the strengthening of the relationship with my life guide and the introduction to a new beautiful Angel Guide. I am very lucky and humbled to have such fantastic influences watching over me. My Angel Guide is a healer and protector and will wrap me in his wings when his help is needed and offered. He is the most magnificent and beautiful being to see. He stands in white with blonde , wavy hair which touches his shoulders. Doesn’t seem to show any imperfection and has piercing blues eyes that look like crystals. The crystal eyes twinkle and sparkle when he looks directly at me. He leaves the most loving , warm feeling and fills me with pure happiness.  I am also truly thankful to Chey Chey who passes much knowledge and ways of life on to me.

My journey had taken off after over coming some personal issues. It was not about moving forward on the path but about taking every side step to experience everything on a level at which I was on and also working with Gillian , my life guide. It has been like a massive computer download. With every meditation and spare moment that my guides , mainly Gillian, Julius ( Angel Guide above) and Chey Chey ( a beautiful elder Indian Lady) , could work with me they have patiently educated me with knowledge and understanding of this world and the next , points of experience to use in my future and many words of wisdom showing me love and kindness to spread to friends , relatives and strangers. Each time has left me more enlightened and with a feeling of contentment and knowledge. Most of what was given I couldn’t tell you as it seeps into the unconscious mind but I can say that when needed information has erupted from my soul to offer help , comfort and guidance to others and myself in situations that of need and communication. It has pushed my own knowledge of Spirit forward with a deeper understanding of both planes of existence.

My teachings are only on the first rung of the ladder of learning and my guides have shown me an image to illustrate this. It was a huge bright ball of light , bigger than any planet you could imagine with me stood on the outside surface. The wise words of “ You are here on the edge and have to enter this amazing world , your knowledge is new and you have much to learn along the great path of your spiritual journey.” passed through me .  Sat on the edge of the soft but brightly lit ball of energy makes you realise that trying to rush things will not work or heading straight for the centre is not an option. It is about exploring all of the outside and finding your way in through an area you are guided and drawn to. Have patience in your guides and they will take you to the cross roads of your paths and allow you to move forward as they walk beside you and offer their knowledge , experience and unconditional love.

I am still on the outer edge of this ball of energy and I have explored some of it. My journey brings me closer to finding the area of entrance but with every step made across its surface I am learning and experiencing so much more than I could have ever imagined.

I will be writing again soon with more of my recent experiences of my life’s path. Until then I offer my love and ask that each of you that read this can compare or learn and understand what an amazing journey you too can undertake if you allow your mind to open to all possibilities and the goodness of light that surrounds you.

Merlin.                            

Today, I start this blog with a small amount of frustration!

Its been a good while of learning control in remaining closed. This is the lesson I have certainly had to learn to my own demise. The thing is, when you keep something caged up it needs to be exercised and that is exactly how it feels! It is like my psychic side is a dog waiting for his morning walk. Constantly barking to let it out so it can start sniffing at everything that I walk by.  As most dog owners will tell you ‘The dog will go out when I am ready’. It is the same with learning to use your Psychic Mind. You work this ability and not let it work you or you will run yourself ragged.

It wasn’t so long ago that my Teacher was receiving text messages from me at 3am in the morning because I was not too happy with what was lurking in my bedroom just glaring over at me. He wasn’t impressed at being woken up at that time either! All because I had opened up without realising it as I was discussing the paranormal to someone else earlier that evening.

So it starts.... Because I had been talking Paranormal about a previous investigation (which we were all specifically told not to think about due to the dark energy surrounding the place along with its negative draw) earlier in the evening and naturally opened up with out recognising it, it caused me some issues later that night.

Still open, I had gone to bed and just started to settle down. Turned over to get comfortable and there it was. A gormless, tall, black, shadowed figure that I had managed to bring in, somehow! This thing had a presence and I knew it wasn’t good. He stood in the corner looking, arms crossed, head down wearing a hooded cape with no face. Can’t say I would like to see it again.

Anyway, as you would imagine my heart sank, fear pulsating through my body with every beat of my heart. In a panic I conversed with my guides, pleading them to come around me and give a good protection. Meanwhile I was sending my forgiving Teacher a lengthy Text Message asking for help. My phone buzzes to itself a moment or two later with a return message. In his calm, mannered approach, a cool and collected reply reads ‘Say the Lords Prayer and close down’. Me, being so silly, could not remember this ground in prayer that we all learnt at school and said so many times , I challenge the Guy in the corner and that was a bit of a mistake!

He glides up and stands right over me as I turned the other way in my nice warm bed, I had shivers run through my spine. He meant business at this point. The thing was feeding from my fear and enjoying every second of it. After about three texts I managed to say the Lord’s Prayer to get rid of this thing. In realising that my emotion gave life to the negative soul my reaction changed to one of taking control. I closed myself down and repeatedly chanted the prayer in my head.

He did eventually leave. It was my own doing that brought this ‘beast’ in to taunt me. In that over confident state I didn’t even recognise my failings. So many times I was told to recognise the signs of opening and to close if it was happening. Being me, I did pay attention because I have much, much respect for my Teacher but thought I had cracked it already with little practise.

I do urge all who are learning to pay attention, learn control, use it (even though it can be frustrating and feeling like you need to exercise your mind) and do as requested by your Teacher and remain closed unless you are told to open or you may find yourself in the same predicament as me.

Yes , I did learn from this experience and that was enough for me to recognise my faults in this lesson and I find it easier to stay closed down for protection and also my own sanity so I am not constantly working and draining my own energies

Well, its just a year ago that all of my development started and , wow , what a year it has been for me!

My development and progress has humbled me in many ways and opened my mind to so many possibilities. I have learnt so much. It has taken me through many high’s and low’s. It causes laughter and tears.

My Teacher has taken me back to the very basics and foundations of development that make it possible to work on a good bed of knowledge and slowly build the wall of experience. With good teacher , practise and control (and doing as I am told) my development will move forward so that one day I maybe as half as good as him to help those who need it whether living or in the spirit world. Believe me , going against the grain and trying to push forward against the Teachers advice will back fire on you...it did me.

During the basics of the development I have had some great points and learnt so much so far. Protection, control , talking to spirit , especially the fun jovial type , is great! Feeling for energies of all types from peoples aura’s to the energy held within every object , it just leaves you in total amazement and you start to realise that everything has its place in this world and leads you to a much bigger picture of life.

I have been lucky enough to see my guides and my main guide has taken me on many journeys of education , self enlightenment ,  journeys of discovery , others of experience , cities and places not of this world and places to where my passed loved ones stay. It would take me so long to list them all and I just wouldn’t know where to start.

There have been difficult times though. About this time last year my teacher said to me that development is an amazing thing , there are many ups and downs and in his words “You will face your demons!” With a raised eye brow and over confident smirk my initial reaction was some what cocky. Like most balanced people my hard nut exterior reaction was that I never had any fears or deep down issues to deal with and laughed off the advice. How wrong I was!!!

That didn’t actually mean that I had little red men with tails and horns dancing around me but I would encounter more personal issues , facing fears , releasing suppressed emotion and over coming anything that has held me back from being the real me until now. For me it was facing personal loss buried deep inside but believe me it feels good to deal with! I have a childhood fear which I am dealing with now. I have fought both of my ‘demons’ all of the way making it more difficult upon myself in not allowing these things to come forward so if this ever happens to you just go with the flow and let your soul do what it needs to do to be free and the real you.

I am a control freak and keeping control, locking these issues into the depths of my being and of the all the things that has ever rocked my boat in the past seemed the best way to deal with it. It was said to me that by loosing control you gain more back. I could never understand that until this point. I still think I have a way to go on this though.

As development pushes forward I am learning to pass on simple messages with out elaborating or imagination falling in with this to those sit in our weekly circle , as are all of the group. This is a strong group with trust and we all sit in the circle for the same reasoning , for development. What a great bunch!

I am so lucky that this is my path to walk along. I know it will have up hill and even rocky moments but the rewards that lay ahead intrigue and draw me forward with the opportunity to learn in the plane of spiritual discovery.